I didn't need the laser beam eyes

(Sorry to disappoint you, Sheepish)

I met up with S last night. It was kind of awkward, but not so terrible. I was very unimpressed when he said the thing he wanted to talk to me about was the same question about why I didn't want to go out with or be friends with him years ago. I'm also kind of unimpressed with myself that I didn't say anything about how I thought it was going to be something much more urgent and important than that.

I was, however, very happy to hear that the reason he was asking was that he's met someone new to date and wanted to know if there was something he did wrong that he should avoid doing this time. He met this new person at church (I was reminded of this Onion article, since he was an atheist when I met him) and apparently she's even more shy than him. They've been hanging out for a while, it sounded like, and she was the one who started asking him to do things, so I assume she does actually like him and so the same problems won't apply.

I relaxed a bit after that, since it was clear he wasn't just trying to make me feel guilty and his life hasn't turned out so terribly, after all. I still didn't have much to say, though. I was still a bit worried that he would want to be friends, at least, since it wasn't quite so awkward as last time we ran into each other. He did say he'd be happy to be friends, but I was sufficiently non-committal that I think he got the message. I accidentally mentioned facebook and then worried that he would friend me. He only poked me, though, which I ignored.

I told him about the group therapy thing I've been doing and he was surprised that I still have any social anxiety, since I have friends and do things with them and stuff. It selfishly made me feel a little better, that someone would think I was as un-shy as I think the other people in the therapy group are.

At one point, he said something about how I could thank him for being at Prestigious U. When I wrote the LtEHB series, I wasn't at all sure that I wouldn't have given up the chance to be here if it would mean that I could make it all unhappen. I'm still not convinced that studying at Prestigious U alone would have been worth it, but certainly enough good has come of being here that I'm glad things happened as they did. I'm glad it seems to be working out okay for S, too.