more whining

I've done more work in the last few days than about the previous few weeks or longer combined. My advisor was giving a talk today so I was here until midnight Friday and Saturday re-analysing my data (I never notice the problems until I go to make figures) and making pretty pictures. Friday night, with 5 minutes to spare before the last shuttle bus left, I realised none of the lifts were running so I had to walk down 8 flights of stairs in the pitch dark stairwell. That was fun...
The talk went pretty well, and I managed to answer the questions that got passed to me about my work. Now that the deadline's passed, though, I'm back to being unmotivated. I have to talk, myself, in 8 weeks time, but that deadline is still too far away to be sufficiently scary.
I did manage to set up a new experiment today, but only because 2 other people need to share the cells and a new rotating student wanted to watch. I've been feeling weirdly jittery, but also very tired today and getting the cells ready requires a lot of fine motor coordination, which I was sadly lacking. I hate being watched at the best of times, but I'm pretty sure my hands were shaking and I haven't done this preparation in a while so I kept forgetting what to do. She kept asking questions about why exactly each step was done, and I didn't really know - that's just how I was taught to do it, which I know is the wrong answer. I should care about things like that, too... Plus, I never talk, so this student spent a couple of hours watching me silently do boring stuff badly, so now I think she thinks I'm boring and antisocial, as well as not knowing what I'm doing.