rejoining the overprescribed masses
I saw the meds nurse today and she put me on ritalin. I was always the complete opposite of an ADD kid, so I'm not sure how I feel about this. I realise it's used for things other than ADD, but it still seems very weird. I keep thinking about the kid in Thumbsucker (a movie I loved, with a very cool soundtrack) who's kind of a weird, shy loner until his teachers suggest he might have ADD. On ritalin he becomes a super-confident and motivated debating star, but he still questions whether he really has a medical condition. The movie is really about coping mechanisms in general, so it's a lot more interesting than I just made it sound.
The nurse today told me not to have too much caffeine with the ritalin, so I'm also wondering if I'd be any more motivated if I just started drinking coffee. At this point, I'm willing to go with it if it'll make me feel any better, but it does seem even more like cheating than ordinary anti-depressants.
I did have a far more productive day today than usual, but that's probably the result of looming deadlines, or just placebo effect.
posted by Lucy @ 4:55 PM
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Antidepressants, and meds for your head in general, aren't "cheating" any more than wearing glasses is. I need glasses to be able to function. Same with the meds. (To carry my analogy further than I should...you just have to get the right prescription.) :)
Hope the Ritalin works for you--keep us posted!
What Luckybuzz said.
Worse comes to worse, you can sell them on the street. Ritalin is a very popular street drug, and it's supposed to be GREAT! (did you try it yet? a shrink friend of mine did once and just loved it - she felt like she could do it all).
So, it could at least be a good money making venture -- and money = happiness, no?
shrinky made me laugh out loud at "money = happiness".
But that's what I told myself about the klonopin too--can always sell it. :)
Good for you for getting medical help. That was a big step, I'm sure. I'm proud of you!
You're not cheating. You're fixing a problem. You *deserve* a healthy life. :)
It wouldn't be "cheating" to get treatment for allergies or diabetes, would it? I agree with all of the above, except maybe selling the Ritalin on the street (just call a friend...).
p.s. I quite liked thumbsucker.
I put thumbsucker on my netflix queue. I hope the ritalin makes you feel better.
I know it's not cheating if it's really a medical problem; I just not entirely convinced I'm not just lazy. If it were just an anti-depressant I'd feel a little better about it I think, but I basically went in complaining about not getting anything done and they gave me speed, effectively...
Shrinky, you made me laugh, too. I'm not sure I have enough to earn much money, though.
I did already do more in my first hour today than I have most other whole days in the last few weeks, but again deadlines...
I really liked Thumbsucker, but I'm always dubious about my taste when people might use it as a suggestion. It is a little self-consciously indie (similar to Garden State).
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