enriching activities

I always like reading the community education brochures and picking out classes that sound fun. I've taken a couple of photography classes, although I didn't really do much with the information. I took a ballet class a few years ago, which was a lot of fun. I still want to do tap dance. I just discovered a weight training class, too, so maybe I'll sign up for that, since I'm still mainly ignoring that section of the gym. I'd like to relearn some French, too. And there's an art class that sounds fun, and not too scary.

My problem is that after reading all the interesting descriptions, I start thinking of why I wouldn't be able to make it to the class, or why I wouldn't fit in or be able to do whatever it is properly. I'm nervous about ice skating (it starts tomorrow), but I'm glad I signed up. I also start to get demoralised before I even sign up, because I don't think I'll keep doing whatever it is after the class is over. I'm much better at starting things than finishing them, or even continuing them.

I already have a bunch of commitments, anyway. I have ice skating and knitting and book club. Although, I started thinking about the art class again today, because it meets at the same time as book club, so I'd written it off. I found out today that one of the book club people is moving away in a month, though, and there are only 3 of us, so I guess it'll break up. It's a pity, because I've enjoyed it, but the person who's moving is the one I find easier to talk to and when she's been away, the other person and I haven't met. I get the feeling that the other person finds me hard to talk to as well. So, I'll be sad at not having book club, and sad that I won't get to see these people again, and maybe become proper friends.

Mostly I like the idea of these classes just because the activities sound fun, but it would be nice to make friends, too. I'm okay at getting on with people within a group and being friendly enough, but I'm no good at shifting to doing things out of context, or even when it's just one other person. That seems somehow related to my inability to finish and/or continue with things. Or, more likely, maybe it's just my lack of self-esteem. This has rambled in a direction I wasn't planning, although I think I have more to say about that (in another post).

Should I take another class? Am I just wasting my time? Should I work on something I have kind of let drop by the wayside, like piano or photography, instead?