I'm such a mess

I said in my last post that I was happy, but that's really only true because I've been avoiding thinking about lab and my research. I can't do that forever, though. Today I thought I'd try facing up to everything I've been putting off and at least figure out what I need to do. Just seeing emails from my advisor and the program coordinator in my inbox is making me want to cry, though.

I know continuing to avoid things is only going to make it worse, but I really don't want to talk to my advisor or anyone. I'm tempted to wait until I've got something done to tell him about, but that's already the reason I put it off last week. Ugh. Maybe I can email him at least.

I need to make some actual progress today so I'm making a list here.

1. email advisor and ask if I can call tomorrow when I've got something to talk about
2. email committee to try to set up meeting
3. email program coordinator to let her know I've emailed committee
4. empty inbox (down to 6!)
5. make figures to add to summary
6. write results section to go with figures
7. grocery shopping
8. exercise